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Double dose the nyquil. Let’s see how this goes. I need sleep.
People often ask me why I care so much about someone I’ve barely met, about someone who’s just walked into my life in some manner or another. A lot of the times, people don’t understand when I say “I just do.” The thing is. I don’t “just do”. I do it because everyone deserves someone who gives their full attention to them.
I don’t know how long a person will be in this world or really, for how long i’ll know them for. And it worries me when I grow so attached to a soul only to see it shatter, that light fading away and in to some dark abyss. I wish the best for everyone, in one way or another…
You see, once again i’ve lost someone today, a friend from high school… But is something that happens a lot and over the years i’ve grown to expect for someone I meet to take their life at least once every two years. And the thing is, I don’t mind being blamed for caring too much, Or perhaps trying too hard. Because in the end that I tried, I tried to help them, and no matter how many people may think I do this for myself, to make myself feel better in the end…
… Its not.
I make myself sick with worry & stress and for what right reason would anyone willingly do that in order to “make themselves feel better”? No… I spend hours trying to find the right words, trying to brighten up the days while draining my own happiness. What I do is not always something so lighthearted. I break myself down and for what?
For someone else’s happiness.
I care because I don’t want the world to lose that precious light.
I don’t want for others to be in a state of emotional or physical pain.
I don’t want for the negatives in life.
I just do what I do because I want to fix the problems this world has spawned.
Sometimes, I feel as if I just want nothing more than to pull some people close, to engage them in conversation. But then I freeze. No matter how long I know someone, I’ll remain terrified to even talk when they seem upset or when they seem busy. Even when I get back in to RPing. If I find someone that I enjoy interacting with, i’m terrified.
Not everyone will bite, I know this. But I just, I worry about ruining whatever okay position I managed to crawl and roll in to.
People deal with stress differently
People deal with being ignored differently
People deal with being sick differently
Don’t be a dick and try to tell someone they are wrong for feeling the way they do or tell them to die because they feel a certain way. You aren’t them, you don’t know how they feel. Thank.
If there is one thing that gets over looked on a daily basis, it would be the effect we have on animals. When I was younger I was taught one thing. One very important and impacting thing. My mother would always say “Animals do not wish to be with us, for they do not ask. It is us who bring them in to our lives without any consideration of their wants or needs." It is because of this that I feel a lot of people need to realize the responsibility it takes to provide for their life long companion as well as possible. I will admit that my cat and dog eat a higher quality of food than I could ever afford to put on a plate before my own self. I do not take them for granted. No, I treat them as I would like to be treated, and in return I can proudly say that I have one of the most well behaved set of animals anyone could meet. Actually, to correct that, I have the best family I could of ever hoped for.
However, I would love to see people think of those words my mother drilled into my head growing up. They do not ask to be with us.
A dog or cat may not ask, but they in turn will love you forever. Even if an animal has a behavioral problem, at the end of the day they still love you. The perfect companion is not something you can buy without expecting a few road bumps. No… its something you have to earn and it is definitely something you cannot beat into an animal either.
But I guess what gets to me the most and can move me to tears is seeing someone who’s had a dog or cat for the entirety of their lives just abandon them. I don’t care if you are moving and can’t take them with you. I DON’T CARE. I know it sounds harsh, but when you truly love something you work to preserve it no matter what the cost. Anyone who could say otherwise has clearly not heard the screams and howls of a senior dog being left by the humans they love the most.
I know my words sound harsh, but i’ve been homeless on quite a few occasions with my family because we’ve found ourselves unable to part with our animals, our friends and family.
Literally the only thing I seemed to thankfully miss out on occurring on my Tumblr? That picture of my tent reaching 1,700 notes.
I’m alive, although I debate on a daily basis what it really means to be alive. On how things don’t really add up or seem fair. But what its life without the pros and cons?
Anyways, I’ve finally finished moving. I’m settled very close in to the Mt. Rainier National Park (All you Washingtonians who are adventurous might know this as the Paradise side.). We’ve also been chucked a handful of stupid weather changes where one day its been over 60 degrees Fahrenheit and then the next day its 12 degrees Fahrenheit and pooping out 6” of snow and 1” of packed ice on the roads in two hours.
And then … theres been a lot of personal things that i’ve been going through, that i’ve been questioning and because of such things… .
Don’t expect me to be extremely active for a long time.